NOTE: This post was originally published on Instagram. I am reposting and backdating it here as part of a historical series in order to preserve these meaningful memories and early motherhood thoughts and experiences in a way that is not tied to any social media platform.
This is something I’ve been wanting to do for some time. As we formally shelter in place in NYC, this project brings me happiness and a welcome break from the news.
I don’t think productivity works for everyone or needs to be our current goal, but for me what works are bursts of productivity in stolen moments, balanced with quiet time, attempts at meditation, family snuggles, play time, trying to keep this now 2-year-old child stimulated and learning, binging on our grown-up shows once he’s asleep, snacking, building community and creating content for Señor Lechuga Hot Sauce, family meals, some form of exercise even if just a walk around the block, and looking to see if there are ways, no matter how small, in which we can help improve the situation. Every day for us is a different mix of this. 🖤
Six months ago on this evening, after several failed attempts and many setbacks and a full-blown infection and 36 hours at the hospital, I was being wheeled into a surgery I was totally unprepared for.
I was alone and terrified and shaking and very distraught that this was not how I wanted my baby to come into the world.
Not because it was surgery, but because I was so scared.
For someone who’s been called fearless, I didn’t expect the fear that came over me. And I *really* didn’t want my baby to feel it through me.
In just minutes, though, there he was. Oh hello Javi.
My husband (who was able to join me mid-cesarean) and I were instantly in love with this beautiful, sweet child. And in the six months since that night, we’ve had our fair share of other scares. But it’s true what they say: Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
Javier, happy 6 month birthday!!! I would face any and every fear and even all of them simultaneously to get to the side with you in it!!!
Originally posted on April 17, 2018
NOTE: This post is not sponsored. All thoughts are unbiased and my own. All photos and content are property of Lauren Cosenza Beauty LLC.
Lauren Cosenza consults for top brands, websites, and magazines and serves as a trusted beauty/fashion/mom expert, a brand ambassador, an on-camera personality and spokesperson, a creative director, a published editorial contributor and writer, the creator and owner of DIVAlicious®, the creator and owner of BEAUTYfull®, a product junkie and an insatiable beauty and style seeker — with a former life at Cosmopolitan, Shape and Bustle/BDG brands. She currently runs Señor Lechuga Hot Sauce with her husband and baby boy as the Co-Founder + Head of Brand.