NOTE: This post was originally published on Instagram. I am reposting and backdating it here as part of a historical series in order to preserve these meaningful memories and early motherhood thoughts and experiences in a way that is not tied to any social media platform.
This is something I’ve been wanting to do for some time. As we formally shelter in place in NYC, this project brings me happiness and a welcome break from the news.
I don’t think productivity works for everyone or needs to be our current goal, but for me what works are bursts of productivity in stolen moments, balanced with quiet time, attempts at meditation, family snuggles, play time, trying to keep this now 2-year-old child stimulated and learning, binging on our grown-up shows once he’s asleep, snacking, building community and creating content for Señor Lechuga Hot Sauce, family meals, some form of exercise even if just a walk around the block, and looking to see if there are ways, no matter how small, in which we can help improve the situation. Every day for us is a different mix of this. 🖤
This mommy chapter is the greatest and most meaningful one in my story – but as an “older” mom, one thing I’m working on is this feeling of less time. Not just that it’s flying by. But that if I had my son earlier in life, we’d have more years together.
More awesome moments. More laughs. More experiences.
I’m sad at the thought of one day not being here with him, even if that may be decades to come. I feel a need to capture every moment. To try to remember and document everything.
My life is so beautiful right now that it brings me to tears. But rather than simply appreciating our time, I sometimes catch myself resisting time, trying to grip it in my hands and slow it down.
Originally posted April 25, 2018
NOTE: This post is not sponsored. All thoughts are unbiased and my own. All photos and content are property of Lauren Cosenza Beauty LLC.
Lauren Cosenza consults for top brands, websites, and magazines and serves as a trusted beauty/fashion/mom expert, a brand ambassador, an on-camera personality and spokesperson, a creative director, a published editorial contributor and writer, the creator and owner of DIVAlicious®, the creator and owner of BEAUTYfull®, a product junkie and an insatiable beauty and style seeker — with a former life at Cosmopolitan, Shape and Bustle/BDG brands. She currently runs Señor Lechuga Hot Sauce with her husband and baby boy as the Co-Founder + Head of Brand.